h2o...got to get up and try..try..try!

macam-macam..
3 bulan yang penuh dgn perisa..
malam ni aku nak mintak izin tuan tanah nak cerita panjang2..catch up all things dat i miss.

Balik je dr Eco Management Camp..hidup aku agak smooth untill i received i text msg from a friend yg buat idup aku rs tunggang terbalik seketika but yet, i knew its going to happen..lambat dgn cepat je. Ya. Dan aku sgt pasti tentang itu. Mcm sedih jugak bila all these things happened tapi aku tetap bersyukur kerana Allah sentiasa melindungi aku.Alhamdulillah.Tq Allah.
Life getting better and better i guess at that moment. Yes, that moment..aku ade geng lepak lepas kerja..ade geng lepak opis sembang..layan keje2 opis yg xpenah abes..lepak mlm2 tengok bola..lepak kedai mkn catch up thingss..but still it keeps crossing my mind. And aku, setiap kali pun sabarkan hati dgn ckp dekat diri aku sendiri, "syukur, Allah itu masih menjaga aku.Jgn sedih, let it go".
Why they are so negative?sampai aku rasa mcm sgt2 penat bila kena hadap benda2 negative setiap kali lepak sm2..i am so sick! u know that? im sick of u. Please. Kisah petang lepas meeting tu buat aku betul surrender. I have to make my own way. Aku dh sgt2 penat. aku xtau la klo ade yg terasa tp aku mmg dh xbole sabar. Awk, u just too much..and please, get out from my way. I beg. aku seboleh nya cuba mengelak, tepis selagi boleh. Jujur, aku dh penat jadi angel.
Makan mlm tu end up dgn aku rs mcm nak sepak  je sekor2. Ok. It was a bad decision when i accepted your invitation coz i end up hate you. Sue me.
Kisah  tak berakhir takat tu je. Bila start kelas, aku start balik kena question dgn soalan2 yg buat aku rasa nak bertukar jadi naga, fire! can't you just stop complaining?can you? Awak, dont you feel tired of complaining? Saya dh penat dgr awak complaint macam2..dan setiap kali tu juga rs bosan bertambah. Awak, why you just go away? make your own way? why must you still stay if your heart hate that? Please! You just make me hate you even more. Sorry, i dont hate you but i am tired of listening. You talk about my friends.. Can i say that you just cannot cope with the environment and yet you blame that the environment doesnt suit you?
Tak tahu mana silap, tak tahu mana salah. lately ni rasa makin senang je aku marah. I think of having new life. Aku mcm dh penat la..sangat2. 3 bulan ni rasa mcm2..bercampur..mcm2 benda aku kena lalui..kadang buat aku fed up. yes. aku fed up..Dengan salah org lain aku kena betulkan..dgn mereka yg xreti nak bersyukur. Dgn mcm2 benda yg buat aku rs mcm i am so tired. I need a break. My heart need a break and my head too.
Dear my office mate, u just make me pissed of. Janji mcm keling. Nasib ade kawan, yg aku rs mcm sgt bersalah dgn dye coz terasa mcm aku ni sgt selfish. Sorry. Utk office mate yg lg 1, awak, i hate you. u r playing with my future, my credibility. Tapi xpe, Allah itu kan ada. Tapi jujur, sy mcm dh xboleh pndg muka anda. im sick of you.

Baru je niat nak tido awal..mmg tak la kan..
Till we meet again. Take care ols.
may He bless us =)